I don't know if anyone else has this, but I am moved to my very soul by music. It touches me in a way that so few other things in life do.
I knew I was pregnant after 8 months when I heard this song on the radio. I don't quite know that I can explain it any better than this, but I know in my heart: God spoke to me, right there in my car when this song came on. I had to pull over and cry, because I felt it. I knew that this time was different from all those other disappointing no's.
It seems I have something of a love affair with Steven Curtis Chapman when it comes to big life messages.
So today, after finding out that we lost the house - the one I wanted, the one I felt sure was our next house - all I could think about was this song:
"'Cause our God has made a promise
And I know that everything He says is true
And I know wherever we go, He will never leave us
'Cause He's gonna lead us home."
I'd like to tell you that I've learned my lesson about faithfulness. I hope it's true, and frankly I hope God never puts me to the test. So this summer, I'm going to do what I should have done all last summer - I know that God is faithful and that He always provides. I know that I've been blessed beyond measure, and that if this door has closed, there is a good reason for it.
I may not know what it is yet, but this time it's not going to shake me.
Every single step of the long way home.