Sunday, October 30, 2011

A haunting we will go

I am proud to say that my little witchy woman lived in her costume this weekend. 

First, there was Music Together, where we got to witness dancing ponies, cartoon characters, princesses and various other fluffy animals.  And, of course, our adorable little witch.

Leah was IN LOVE with Elmo.  And also confused by the fact that there was a child in there...

After Music Together, the city was hosting a trick-or-treat street completely unbeknownst to us.  But since it was already there, of course, we had to attend!  We even made an impromptu candy bucket by way of her hat, which she didn't want to wear anyway. 

It was a good haul!

We also made the rounds and did a little trick-or-treating at relatives' houses.

We stopped by Northglenn High School for safestreet trick-or-treating, which turned out to be an absolutely incredible spectacle, complete with an hour-long wait to get in the door.  Fortunately, Leah passed the time by entertaining the crowd with her dance moves.  I'm convinced she thought everyone was there to see her.

We had to go through a (thankfully) short haunted house in order to get in the door, which I hadn't anticipated and immediately regretted.  Leah did well, but I was horrified I'd allowed her to go through it.  It wasn't really that scary since it was designed for little kids, but I hadn't planned on it and felt very guilty.

Unfortunately, we didn't get any pictures because it was so dark they didn't turn out.

We also got in touch with our wild side and made our second annual trek to Boo at the Zoo.  This time, we got to go with Auntie Jess and baby James.
Every witch needs a wand!

Where else would you find a monkey but the zoo?

Last year, it was almost 80 degrees.  This year, my sweet little pumpkin had the coldest hands I've ever felt and wouldn't let me put her mittens on.  She didn't seem to mind, though. 

It was a hauntingly wonderful weekend.  And all that trick-or-treating was good practice for the big even tomorrow night.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Where am I?

I didn't get two lines this month.  On my ovulation tests, that is.


They just wouldn't come up the way they were supposed to.  I'm not sure if that's still left-over side-effects from the miscarriage, or if it means I never ovulated, or what.  But, I tell you, it's maddening.    

Because of the wacky way that I ovulate, a pregnancy test isn't helpful until one week after I've missed my period. 

I was three days late.  Three days.  And now, something is going on down there.  Something that looks suspiciously like a monthly visitor I do not want to see. 

This is like a form of torture.  If I'm not going to get pregnant, fine.  But must I suffer through three days of waiting?  Three days of getting my hopes up, all the while trying desperately not to?  Knowing that with one spot of red in my underwear the whole thing will be torn away from me again? 

I know.  Patience.  Faith.  God's timing.  Patience again. 

But I'm all stocked up on patience, thanks.  It's time for a little instant gratification.  I know that people have it waay worse than me, so perhaps it's inappropriate for me to whine here on my little corner of the internet.  Maybe even at all. 

Call me weak.  Call me selfish.  Call me impatient.  Call me whatever you want. 

I'm ready.  Ready and waiting for this baby.  And tired of this endless cycle of praying and building myself up, trying not to hope and readying myself for the fall. 

Please, please, please.  Let this month be the month.  Please let our baby be ready for us, too.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Just take it off. I'm not ready.


Don't even go there.  I'm just not ready. 

I won't be ready on kindergarten day.  I won't be ready on graduation day.  Don't even start with this business. 

Mommy doesn't think it's funny, so just take it off. 

Saturday, October 22, 2011

A piece of my bliss

I vividly remember the magic of the fall seasons throughout my childhood.

I remember the crunch of the leaves underneath my shoes.  The sweet smell of the air.  The rustling of wind down our street.  I remember coming home to hot coccoa and apples after school on a chilly fall day.  The anticipation of trick-or-treating, and what a special occassion it was to get a Happy Meal in those Frankenstein head buckets.  Spooky decorations. 

Silly little things that made the Octobers of my childhood seem special.  Things that are carved into my memory even all these years later.

Memories I look forward to recreating for my children.

And maybe a little free labor thrown in, too.  You know, because it builds character.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

My bitter's better

I saw this today:

Okay, so not literally this.  There were more clothes involved.  But standing outside a store (which, I swear, was not Walmart, despite what you might think based on this story) was a woman with her two year old son, 5 or 6 year old daughter, and her very pregnant belly.

Holding a bottle of beer.  While smoking.

And before I could stop it, through my mind flashed these words:
Yeah.  I'm sure she can have lots of kids.

However much I'd like to pretend that my bitter is better, it's clearly not gone. 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Scarecrows, bread, cookies and hayrides. Lets discuss.

I have discovered that I am ridiculously productive when I don't have to go to work. 

Take, for example, this weekend.  While on fall "break" between Friday and Sunday, I/we:

Vacuumed the entire house
Washed all the windows
Cleaned the window tracks
Went grocery shopping
Made applesauce
Washed, dried and put away 5 loads of laundry
Went to Music Together class
Attended a scarecrow festival in downtown Arvada

Changed the little into her Halloween costume and explored a little more (and I'm warning you now... you'll be seeing a lot more of this costume given all the events we have planned!  Good things she's a total cutie!)

Watched "Tangled" - adorable!  How have I not seen this movie before?!

Baked cookies

Decorated cookies

Made by LMS!

Baked bread.  That's right.  Homemade French bread.

Made chicken parmeasean, stuffing and applesauce for dinner.  All homemade!  (Okay, you caught me.  Except the stuffing, which came from a box.  But come ON people, I baked bread!)

Decorated the rest of the cookies

Finished putting up our outdoor Halloween decorations.
Made french toast from the left over bread.

Sat on a gigantic pumpkin.

Took a stroll through a corn maze

Danced in a pumpkin patch

Went on a hayride

And had oodles of fall family fun (try saying that 5 times fast!)!

Whew!  I'm exhausted!  I need a break from my break!  Precious fall memories?  Check, and check!

Friday, October 14, 2011

For the love of the game

Once upon a time, I was quite a little athlete.

Well... that might be overstating things.  But I did play just about every sport on the face of the planet.  Not well, mind you, but I loved the competition, I loved the getting sweaty and working toward something, and I loved the being part of a team. 

Each year, our school hosts a student-teacher volleyball match at the end of the girls' volleyball season.  I missed it last year, since I was still hefting around two giant, baby-feeding weights that weren't exactly conducive to bouncing around a court, so this year I knew I had to get in on the action.

I have to say, even though we're just a bunch of old farts now, running around playing sports we were good at a decade ago, I was actually pretty impressed.

It was nowhere near as bad as it could have been.  In fact, I was downright impressed with how much my body remembered what to do and where to go.

And, we won the matches - all 6 of them!  Let's hear it for the old farts!

The best part was that Casey and Leah came to watch, and let me tell you... that girl was the hit of the day!  Why middle school kids love toddlers and babies so much, I will never know.  But they couldn't keep their eyes or their hands off of her.

Oh how I hope our girl loves sports!  And music.  And reading.  That's not too much to ask, right?

Just when I'd started to think there was no real difference between playing in high school or college and playing as an adult, grown-up mommy, it hit me.  No, seriously.  I felt like I'd been hit by a ton of bricks! 

Recovery.  That's what's different!  I definitely don't bounce back as quickly as I once did, and I've got the bruises to prove it.  Whoever thought it was a good idea to go diving across the gym floor without knee pads was crazy.  And wrong.  Even if she did make some pretty spectacular saves (if I do say so myself!).

But recapturing that 18-year-old love of the game?  Totally worth it!

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