Those hard-won babies. The ones that just don't come easily. The ones who are cherished by their mommies, because the mommies know the long, painful and scary struggle it was to smell their pretty little heads and have their tiny fingers wrapped around our own. The ones who heal the cracks in their mommies' souls purely by existing.
That is the baby I'll be waiting for.
Because this little one I've been treasuring in my belly is gone.
My life is priviledged in so many ways: I have a wonderful home, a job I love, safety and security, and of course, my absolutely adored 18 month old daughter.
So it is hard to find it in me to complain about the things I don't have. But I also have this image of Leah as a big sister. An image of her kissing my very pregnant belly. An image of making Casey a daddy again.
I know that picture isn't gone forever. But I'm a little heartbroken that it's gone for now.
So, my hard-won baby... I'll be eagerly awaiting you.
Oh Melissa! My heart is breaking for you...I am so very sorry to hear this...you will be in my prayers. Cry as many tears as you want to, I think I will cry some for you, too. Hang in there, you truly are such a strong and inspirational person.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry friend. My heart is sad for you. Know that Gods plan for you and your family is perfect in every way, even though understanding it might be difficult. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry to hear this sad news. I will be praying for you and your family. God does have a plan for you and you will soon see that yourself. I am so sorry.My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeleteMelissa, I am really sorry to read this news. So sad for you.
ReplyDeleteHowever, it seems like you are taking it as well as can be expected, even though I know it is incredibly difficult.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.